Fences.

Everyone has a different fence. My fence is blocked, surrounding and isolating me from everyone else around. Recently, I've been more drifted from everyone else, such as my friends and my own mom. I've been feeling more distance between our relationships. It’s not that I lost trust for those around me, but more of me not being able to feel comfortable sharing. I feel like if I tell one person something, everyone else will eventually know about it. There aren't many people that I can fully depend on anymore. I've lost the ability to open up, telling my close ones about my own personal problems, because I feel as if they don't need to know any of my business. In many ways, bubbling myself from everyone else is an easier way to prevent all the drama that can happen, as if there hasn’t been enough drama. I've seen many people hurt and betray each other, therefore it's pretty difficult for me to trust anyone around me. People tell everyone else from what they hear, causing stupid and pointless drama around. I see close friends turning to two people living their own individual lives, as if they didn’t know each other.

Then, there’s my mom. I can’t even remember the last time we’ve had a legitimate conversation without any yelling and screaming towards each other. Growing up, we’d always be close. All there ever was back then were laughters and happiness. But now, we’re just two people living under the same roof, with constant arguments and frustration. Everytime we do talk, it’ll be about something negative. Even if I did try to open up, everything I say to her would just turn into a lecture. We don’t get along, we never do. It’s impossible to go a day without a tiny argument. All she ever do is work her way into my life, by being nosey and being all up in my buisness. She’s constantly bugging me about something I could care less about.

I love my friends and my mom, and I know they’ll always be there for me, but getting out of the fence is currently hard. I wish I was better at opening up rather than just bottling everything up and explode one day.

RE: Holidays.

"The winter season! Oh geez I can’t wait till it's cold and snow is on the mountains." -Dominique Ocampo

October’s almost over, which means November’s coming up. It’s finally that time of the year, the most wonderful time of the year! The Holiday season! There’s so much to love about the Holidays; the holiday spirit, family gatherings, Starbucks’ holiday menu, no school, Thanksgiving, no school, Black Friday, Christmas, & New Years, and did I mention about no school yet?! & etc.  Seeing Christmas lights decorated everywhere, people in winter clothes, seeing people’s attitudes changing into a better & a positive one, Holiday sales, Christmas shopping, toddlers writing to Santa, outdoor ice-skating, being with the ones you love, etc. I’m pretty excited for all those events that are coming up.

And for those that don’t know yet, I basically love Christmas Songs. I sing them all year long. My friends would question me why I sing Christmas songs all the time. And there’ll be times where you’ll see me driving around, just blasting and singing obnoxiously to Christmas songs. I know, it’s a bit weird, but it’s never too early to be thinking about Christmas. My holiday spirit just happens to be there year round! :}

CE: Hit & Run.

"A two-year-old Chinese girl run over by two different vehicles and ignored by at least 18 passersby has died, in an incident that has shocked the nation and ignited public uproar over what some called a moral numbness seeping through society." I've been hearing about this from quite a few people now, but haven’t seen the video with my own eyes until today. This girl gotten run over by two different vehicles and was left in blood. She was ignored by more than a dozen, because they didn’t want to get themselves to trouble. This shows how people put themselves first even if someone else is severely injured. Seeing this really depresses me. It made me realize how selfish we’ve all gotten these days. How are people okay with just ignoring this toddler, passing by as if nothing has happened? What’s going through their minds when they saw that? Do they not care about another’s life? No one cares about others these days. All they think about are themselves. We need more people in this world that are willing to open their eyes and realize sometimes the best the thing to do is think about others before they think about themselves.

FREE: Rejection.

I’m sure many people have a little fear of getting rejected; where you want to be somewhere, but the answer was “no.” When it comes to rejection, I’m practically scared shitless.
For example, what if someone’s asking someone out, but they get rejected from the other person. I’m sure that person that asked would feel like complete shit, because the person that they want to be with denied them. But that’s not what I’m trying to refer to.
I’m referring to college, my dream college. I’ve been wanting to go to University of California, Irvine for a while now. Irvine is a beautiful city that is located in the coast of Southern California.  I’ve heard about how well their medical department is and I’ve been interested for way too long. I know that UC Irvine will be one of the UCs I’ll be applying for this month, but I also know I don’t have the grades for it. I’m not trying to doubt myself, but it’s only the truth. I know getting rejected by this college would definitely be hard for me; I can already imagine myself getting a rejection letter from them, but hey, it’s always worth a try right? And even if I don’t get in for undergrad, I know I won’t give up. Maybe for grad, I’ll try again? Oh wells, we’ll see. Life’s not fair, and we don’t always get what we want anyways.

CE: Free Education.

“Students in Chile have been holding nationwide demonstrations to demand free and quality education for all, accusing President Sebastian Pinera of shutting his ears to their demands.” There have been protests for two days and they’re continuing on with it. They’re attempting to make Chile - the so-called Latin American success story - a country where equal opportunity is more than just a slogan. Everyone should have free quality education rather than having just decent education depending on how much money you have. It’s unfair and is a disadvantage for those children whose family incomes are low. Earning money is awfully difficult for a family, but taking someone’s education away because of that is wrong. Every student should be given an equal amount of education for free even if they’re rich or more. You can’t buy education, you can only gain it. We students in the United States are given free education in public schools. We choose public schools for a reason; not everyone can afford going to a private school. But we gain the same education and knowledge as one and another. Paying more doesn’t necessarily mean we learn more. Free education still teaches us what we need to know. But many of us take that for granted. We usually don’t realize how lucky we are for having free education. Some don’t take school seriously, so they’re slacking off to the point where they’re failing and not learning anything. We should be thankful for having free education while other kids elsewhere are paying to learn the same amount we are learning.

FREE: Tattoos.

I just saw Hoan’s tattoo right now, so I’ll do a little post about it.

Anywhere you go, you’re bound to see at least one person with a tattoo.  Tattoos have gotten really popular over these years, to the extent where it’s over rated in my opinion.  Don’t get me wrong, I still want one later on in my life. But people these days get tatted of the MOST randomest and pointless things ever.  Some gets tattoos of pictures, words, and symbols that they think are cute, but it’s not even meaningful. A tattoo is permanent. Ink is injected into your dermis of the skin; therefore it won’t go away in days or years. Once it’s there, it’ll be there for a lifetime, unless you get it removed, which you’ll have to go through pain and cash out a lot.

I find people that get tattoos of their boyfriends’ and girlfriends’ names are stupid. I mean it’s cute, but what’s going to happen if you two break up? Their name’s still going to be on your skin. Then there are those who gets tattoo of a random picture and symbol. What do they even mean to you? If that picture has no meaning, then shit, you might as well get a picture of my face for your next tattoo. And the symbols? Do you even understand and know what they symbol stands for? Tattoos aren’t cheap either.  I wouldn’t want to pay for something I’d want to get removed in a few years.

If you’re going to get a tattoo, at least get something you wouldn’t regret in the future. Don’t get a tattoo, just because everyone else has one. Don’t get it because it’s cute. Don’t get it because you just want one. But get it, because it actually means something to you, motivates you, or defines you.

FREE: Senioritis.

Definition of Senioritis from Urban Dictionary:

Senorities- noun. A crippling disease that strikes high school seniors.
Symptoms include: laziness, an over-excessive wearing of track pants, old athletic shirts, sweatpants, athletic shorts, and sweatshirts. Also features a lack of studying, repeated absences, and a generally dismissive attitude. The only known cure is a phenomenon known as Graduation.

Seniorities, a disease that all high school Seniors experience during their last final year in high school. We all know that it has already hit us. Those symptoms already apply to us. We’re tired of all the shit we’ve put up in school. We’re ready for a break. All the waking up early to learn, all the homework that the teachers had assigned, all the test that we must study for, and etc., are not exactly what we wanna do anymore. We’re ready and just wanting to graduate already.  As nervous we are for the future, we just want high school to be over with. We’re ready to walk the stage and after we do so, we’ll be ready to say “Damn, we did it.”